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Woke up at 7am today, and now am blogging. I should be posting happy thoughts now since I've been happy for the past couple of days. Financial problems are now being solved and almost everything has returned to normal.

But sometimes, life is just so unfair...

Yesterday was my feedback session with my team leader for my 2009 year end performance. My overall rating is G and he congratulated me, but I don't know why I didn't felt happy. So at the end of the conversation, he asked me if there is some sensitive issue I would like to ask. Ok, I wanted to ask regarding my promotion, but seems like it shouldn't be coming from me. So he initiated the talk with regards to the promotion and made an intro that the company has been a little lenient and would accept employees that have an evals of G. But as he said, unfortunately I was not one of those who were chosen to get promoted.

The reason?? coz I wasn't a lead in any project last year and Operation and Maintenance tickets are not enough to justify that I should be promoted. I don't know what to do nor feel, but all I can say is that I am very disappointed and I cried. Yes, I cried in front of my TL. :(

He was able to ask regarding resignation because of this incident and my answer is... "Prangkahan sir, Oo."

I don't want to be wasting another year here, knowing that I would never be able to get a chance at being promoted here. 3 years is already enough.