What a life

Everyday , I've been living my life with a smile on my face. Of course I need to go to work and show the people around me that I am ok. But in reality, at the back of this smile is a face is full of despair and agony. I don't know what to do anymore...

People are saying that I am a strong woman and that my mom is lucky to have me as a daughter because for (1) I try my best to hide every sad chapter of my life and as much as possible I face the challenges alone, and (2) I strive hard to be the best daughter in the world.

But my mom never sees me as someone she can be proud of. Ever since I was a child, I was severely spanked to the point that my whole body is somewhat covered with bruises. The reason? because I can't memorize the alphabet or because I did something terrible. I still remember the days when I have to go to school and be questioned by my classmates why do I have bruises? My reaction? Nothing. I try my best to hide the pain and agony I'm feeling.

There are only a few times in the 23 years of me being alive that I remember her being proud of me. But there are many times when she compared me to my cousins, because my cousins are more intelligent, more caring, gives more money, etc etc.

Oh! and did I say that I'm just an only child? So, I really can't say that I am lucky being an only child. Aside from the fact that the full attention is in me. Every little mistake I do is also seen, and that little mistake always has big consequences.

So maybe I am really a big failure, and I am a big disappointment from the very beginning.

6.2 Magnitude earthquake

When the earthquake hit Pasig a while ago, where was I??

I WAS IN THE ELEVATOR GOING TO WORK AFTER EATING LUNCH!

Thank God and I am safe...

Why did i get married too

If every body is going gaga of Eclipse, I am going gaga over This:

I was watching Etc when they showed the interview of Janet Jackson and Tyler Perry in the Premier of their movie "Why Did I Get Married Too?"

This movie would be the second part of their movie which is "Why Did I Get Married?"

What I love about this movie is that it shows the different marital issues that typical couples have, and that after every challenges that came, they still tend to fix it up.

The setting of the movie would always be when this group of friends/couples went to their annual get together, that is organized by Patricia (Janet Jackson). Here in this outing, the couples will settle the different marital issues they're experiencing.

The plot if this current movie: "Four couples reunite for their annual vacation in order to socialize and to spend time analyzing their marriages. Their intimate week in the Bahamas is disrupted by the arrival of an ex-husband determined to win back his recently remarried wife."

Release date would be on April 2, 2010 in the USA

Logo Creation

Okay! so after doing the website of mufflerland, here I am again doing another website. This time, its for the manufacturer of the mufflers found in mufflerland; which is New Rockford.

The company is owned and operated by Jovey's cousin. So as usual this project is just TY.

My first step in revamping the site of rockford is to create a new logo which has been requested.

So! which logo looks better?? I prefer the first one.

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Woke up at 7am today, and now am blogging. I should be posting happy thoughts now since I've been happy for the past couple of days. Financial problems are now being solved and almost everything has returned to normal.

But sometimes, life is just so unfair...

Yesterday was my feedback session with my team leader for my 2009 year end performance. My overall rating is G and he congratulated me, but I don't know why I didn't felt happy. So at the end of the conversation, he asked me if there is some sensitive issue I would like to ask. Ok, I wanted to ask regarding my promotion, but seems like it shouldn't be coming from me. So he initiated the talk with regards to the promotion and made an intro that the company has been a little lenient and would accept employees that have an evals of G. But as he said, unfortunately I was not one of those who were chosen to get promoted.

The reason?? coz I wasn't a lead in any project last year and Operation and Maintenance tickets are not enough to justify that I should be promoted. I don't know what to do nor feel, but all I can say is that I am very disappointed and I cried. Yes, I cried in front of my TL. :(

He was able to ask regarding resignation because of this incident and my answer is... "Prangkahan sir, Oo."

I don't want to be wasting another year here, knowing that I would never be able to get a chance at being promoted here. 3 years is already enough.