I have just turned 24 last April 27... so Belated Happy Birthday to me! :)
On my special day, I was on leave. I need to relax and escape even for just a day from all the things that have been stressing me out. But sad to say when I woke up on my birthday with fever! shet!
So san ako nagsuot kahit may sakit ako? nag tagaytay ako!! :) I asked Jovey to drive me to Pink Sisters. Gustong gusto ko kasing pumunta dun kahit once a year lang para magdasal and mag ask for blessings. at pagkatapos nun? umuwi na ako at natulog hehe.
So kung anong wish ko sa birthday ko?
BETTER PAYING JOB!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
What a life
Everyday , I've been living my life with a smile on my face. Of course I need to go to work and show the people around me that I am ok. But in reality, at the back of this smile is a face is full of despair and agony. I don't know what to do anymore...
People are saying that I am a strong woman and that my mom is lucky to have me as a daughter because for (1) I try my best to hide every sad chapter of my life and as much as possible I face the challenges alone, and (2) I strive hard to be the best daughter in the world.
But my mom never sees me as someone she can be proud of. Ever since I was a child, I was severely spanked to the point that my whole body is somewhat covered with bruises. The reason? because I can't memorize the alphabet or because I did something terrible. I still remember the days when I have to go to school and be questioned by my classmates why do I have bruises? My reaction? Nothing. I try my best to hide the pain and agony I'm feeling.
There are only a few times in the 23 years of me being alive that I remember her being proud of me. But there are many times when she compared me to my cousins, because my cousins are more intelligent, more caring, gives more money, etc etc.
Oh! and did I say that I'm just an only child? So, I really can't say that I am lucky being an only child. Aside from the fact that the full attention is in me. Every little mistake I do is also seen, and that little mistake always has big consequences.
So maybe I am really a big failure, and I am a big disappointment from the very beginning.
People are saying that I am a strong woman and that my mom is lucky to have me as a daughter because for (1) I try my best to hide every sad chapter of my life and as much as possible I face the challenges alone, and (2) I strive hard to be the best daughter in the world.
But my mom never sees me as someone she can be proud of. Ever since I was a child, I was severely spanked to the point that my whole body is somewhat covered with bruises. The reason? because I can't memorize the alphabet or because I did something terrible. I still remember the days when I have to go to school and be questioned by my classmates why do I have bruises? My reaction? Nothing. I try my best to hide the pain and agony I'm feeling.
There are only a few times in the 23 years of me being alive that I remember her being proud of me. But there are many times when she compared me to my cousins, because my cousins are more intelligent, more caring, gives more money, etc etc.
Oh! and did I say that I'm just an only child? So, I really can't say that I am lucky being an only child. Aside from the fact that the full attention is in me. Every little mistake I do is also seen, and that little mistake always has big consequences.
So maybe I am really a big failure, and I am a big disappointment from the very beginning.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
6.2 Magnitude earthquake
When the earthquake hit Pasig a while ago, where was I??
I WAS IN THE ELEVATOR GOING TO WORK AFTER EATING LUNCH!
Thank God and I am safe...
I WAS IN THE ELEVATOR GOING TO WORK AFTER EATING LUNCH!
Thank God and I am safe...
Why did i get married too
I was watching Etc when they showed the interview of Janet Jackson and Tyler Perry in the Premier of their movie "Why Did I Get Married Too?"
This movie would be the second part of their movie which is "Why Did I Get Married?"
What I love about this movie is that it shows the different marital issues that typical couples have, and that after every challenges that came, they still tend to fix it up.
The setting of the movie would always be when this group of friends/couples went to their annual get together, that is organized by Patricia (Janet Jackson). Here in this outing, the couples will settle the different marital issues they're experiencing.
The plot if this current movie: "Four couples reunite for their annual vacation in order to socialize and to spend time analyzing their marriages. Their intimate week in the Bahamas is disrupted by the arrival of an ex-husband determined to win back his recently remarried wife."
Release date would be on April 2, 2010 in the USA
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Logo Creation
Okay! so after doing the website of mufflerland, here I am again doing another website. This time, its for the manufacturer of the mufflers found in mufflerland; which is New Rockford.
The company is owned and operated by Jovey's cousin. So as usual this project is just TY.
My first step in revamping the site of rockford is to create a new logo which has been requested.
So! which logo looks better?? I prefer the first one.
The company is owned and operated by Jovey's cousin. So as usual this project is just TY.
My first step in revamping the site of rockford is to create a new logo which has been requested.
So! which logo looks better?? I prefer the first one.
Friday, March 19, 2010
????
Woke up at 7am today, and now am blogging. I should be posting happy thoughts now since I've been happy for the past couple of days. Financial problems are now being solved and almost everything has returned to normal.
But sometimes, life is just so unfair...
Yesterday was my feedback session with my team leader for my 2009 year end performance. My overall rating is G and he congratulated me, but I don't know why I didn't felt happy. So at the end of the conversation, he asked me if there is some sensitive issue I would like to ask. Ok, I wanted to ask regarding my promotion, but seems like it shouldn't be coming from me. So he initiated the talk with regards to the promotion and made an intro that the company has been a little lenient and would accept employees that have an evals of G. But as he said, unfortunately I was not one of those who were chosen to get promoted.
The reason?? coz I wasn't a lead in any project last year and Operation and Maintenance tickets are not enough to justify that I should be promoted. I don't know what to do nor feel, but all I can say is that I am very disappointed and I cried. Yes, I cried in front of my TL. :(
He was able to ask regarding resignation because of this incident and my answer is... "Prangkahan sir, Oo."
I don't want to be wasting another year here, knowing that I would never be able to get a chance at being promoted here. 3 years is already enough.
But sometimes, life is just so unfair...
Yesterday was my feedback session with my team leader for my 2009 year end performance. My overall rating is G and he congratulated me, but I don't know why I didn't felt happy. So at the end of the conversation, he asked me if there is some sensitive issue I would like to ask. Ok, I wanted to ask regarding my promotion, but seems like it shouldn't be coming from me. So he initiated the talk with regards to the promotion and made an intro that the company has been a little lenient and would accept employees that have an evals of G. But as he said, unfortunately I was not one of those who were chosen to get promoted.
The reason?? coz I wasn't a lead in any project last year and Operation and Maintenance tickets are not enough to justify that I should be promoted. I don't know what to do nor feel, but all I can say is that I am very disappointed and I cried. Yes, I cried in front of my TL. :(
He was able to ask regarding resignation because of this incident and my answer is... "Prangkahan sir, Oo."
I don't want to be wasting another year here, knowing that I would never be able to get a chance at being promoted here. 3 years is already enough.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
When will the Malas go away!
Okay! so I've been blogging about how miserable life is in my last 2 posts... Sorry to say, it doesn't end there. Last night, Jovey told me that he will be going to work because of their uplift and he is the one who will supervise it (yes, this is the life of being an IT Support). I am not comfortable with him working from 10pm-2pm (2 shifts) and kept asking if he could just work from home and do the uplift there. But he cant...
So fine, he went to work.. and around 9:30-9:35pm he called me up....
J: "love, nabangga ako sa poste.... "
R: "whatttt?? san??"
J: "dito, sa may st paul pasig.. nag counterflow kasi yung taxi tapos matulin siya. iniwasan ko... ayun.."
R: "oh........"
So that's my reaction.. I was shocked, again. The never ending story of my car crashing never ceased to make me miserable.
The damage is not that bad but the amount of money to be used in repairing the bumper is the problem. I just hope that we could get a surplus bumper for our car.
So fine, he went to work.. and around 9:30-9:35pm he called me up....
J: "love, nabangga ako sa poste.... "
R: "whatttt?? san??"
J: "dito, sa may st paul pasig.. nag counterflow kasi yung taxi tapos matulin siya. iniwasan ko... ayun.."
R: "oh........"
So that's my reaction.. I was shocked, again. The never ending story of my car crashing never ceased to make me miserable.
The damage is not that bad but the amount of money to be used in repairing the bumper is the problem. I just hope that we could get a surplus bumper for our car.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Not so happy vday
People here in the office have been asking me what my bf did or gave me on valentines day. The answer is simple, there are no flowers that made my heart drop or a romantic candle light dinner. What we did is just a simple, we strolled the bonifacio high street and ate brother's burger! :)
I know, I Know... this is not the typical Valentines Date, and my friends here in the office were so disappointed with what happened. I also am very disappointed and I just controlled my emotions or else I'm going to burst in tears. So here I am, trying to be positive about everything. He did say sorry that he wasn't able to give me flowers on valentines day, like the way it were the last two years.
But as I've said to myself... I have to move on. 3 days from now, it will be our 4th year anniversary, I just hope this would be a memorable one. (which I also doubt, I pray that I'm just being sarcastic)
I know, I Know... this is not the typical Valentines Date, and my friends here in the office were so disappointed with what happened. I also am very disappointed and I just controlled my emotions or else I'm going to burst in tears. So here I am, trying to be positive about everything. He did say sorry that he wasn't able to give me flowers on valentines day, like the way it were the last two years.
But as I've said to myself... I have to move on. 3 days from now, it will be our 4th year anniversary, I just hope this would be a memorable one. (which I also doubt, I pray that I'm just being sarcastic)
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Miserable weekend
Its really hard to raise a parent or parents as they say. This I really find true! If ever some might not know is that at the age of 16, I lost my dad. I'm currently, of course with my mom now and I don't have any siblings to help me. I've been trying my best to be the best daughter to her, meeting her every need and want as much as I can. But sometimes, I just can't anymore... emotionally and financially I'm drained...
So a brief introduction of the bad side she has? If she doesn't get what she want, ready your ears.
So here goes, next weekend, february 13, 2010 is my cousin's wedding. There are 3 reserved seats for us (me, her and bf). Aside from the fact that its Valentines Eve, its already Chinese Xmas (the day before Chinese New Year). bf tried asking his mom if he can go to my cousin's wedding, and sad to say.. his mom didn't let him. So I told my mom the situation and instead of understanding, she became angry that my bf's mom doesn't know how to respect and that my bf is so mama's boy and etc etc. I've spend that whole night last night listening to her yakking about the situation.
So because of that, here I am enduring every second, minute, and hours here at home listening to her yak til the wedding ends.
So a brief introduction of the bad side she has? If she doesn't get what she want, ready your ears.
So here goes, next weekend, february 13, 2010 is my cousin's wedding. There are 3 reserved seats for us (me, her and bf). Aside from the fact that its Valentines Eve, its already Chinese Xmas (the day before Chinese New Year). bf tried asking his mom if he can go to my cousin's wedding, and sad to say.. his mom didn't let him. So I told my mom the situation and instead of understanding, she became angry that my bf's mom doesn't know how to respect and that my bf is so mama's boy and etc etc. I've spend that whole night last night listening to her yakking about the situation.
So because of that, here I am enduring every second, minute, and hours here at home listening to her yak til the wedding ends.
