Failure

I don't know how to start this entry, its very embarrassing to say that the should have been "Achievement" became a "Failure". It all happened yesterday and I didn't have the guts to write it, but upon further thinking and further scrutinizing the details I guess I have to write it.

Yesterday was supposed to be the day that I will be so busy fixing up all the permits that I will be needed for the internet cafe that I have acquired. Well, yes that half day was a bit tiring to think that we were already in DTI (12th floor trafalgar bldg makati) at around 7am. So yes I was able to get my DTI certificate, left the building at around11am to travel back to caloocan to fix the BIR, City hall and Barangay permits. Upon arrival at caloocan we went to the internet shop that we will be acquiring. Wasted a few minutes chit chat with the owner about how did we go in DTI and also what we will be needing in the city hall. So! after the chit chat, we headed to the brangay which is right accross the street from the building where the internet cafe was, passed the requirements.... the secretary of the barangay chairman asked us to come back at around 5pm. We were devastated and asked why.. the secretary simply said that the Barangay captain is on lunch break and will not come out of his office until 2pm! (what a bitch!!!). I was really angry.. due to the fact that its pass 12pm already.. I'm very very hungry!. So we told the secretary that we cannot wait that long and need to finish all permits within the day due to our busy schedule at work... So she told us that we just tell the city hall that the barangay permit will be "to follow". So we had lunch.. went straight to the city hall... got an application form from licensing department, the licensing personnel told us that we should secure a clearance from the Zoning department since there has been a memo regarding internet cafe's operating near shools. We headed to the zoning department (this is where it all began...), the zoning department guy asked us certain questions like where will be the shop located, nearest school?, new applicant? we answered everything, then the zoning guy said.. "pasensya na... hindi ko to ma-approve, i-rereject ko to. May memo na kasi na lumabas na dapat ang mga bagong internet cafe eh 200 sqm in radius away sa school kasi maraming magulang na nagrereklamo na yung mga anak nila na elementary palang hindi na pumapasok... asa internet cafe nalang at naglalaro. Nagalit si mayor kaya eto.. wala akong magagawa." My God!! all our efforts are just wasted.. damn! the zoning guy just said that the only suggestion he could give is...

1. use the old permit with the old owner's name as the owner of the shop for 3 months, and upon renewal of the permit by january the zoning guy will ask (maki usap) the licensing department to allow us to replace the owner's name.

2. Back out.

So we have no choice, we rather back out than face future problems that would arise using the old owner's name in the business permit. We are not comfortable with the fact that there will be no trace of my name in the business permit. We are just avoiding future problems that will arise.

So we talked to the owner and told her about the situation, she said that she has a fixer in the city hall that will help us get the permit. We told her that we don't want any problems to arise due to this. in 2010 there will be a new mayor, what if that mayor has found out about our situation. It would be a little harsh on our part.... So we told her that we are sorry for the inconvenience that this may have caused. :(

I know some of you may say that I am stupid in not allowing the fixer do his work. Well, we just wanted to have a business that is legal with no problems. With the current order of the mayor being executed, not following it would be a crime. We just wanted the business to be clean... :(

Breakdown

Currently at work now, doing documentation for all the tickets that has been assigned to me today (damn! I hate documentations). So while doing my documentation, asset-transmittal-ticket tagging, and half daydreaming. The song "Breakdown" by mariah played, its part of my play list.

I remembered something about this song, it was when I was in High School I had a crush on this guy that I have never before met/seen. Well Textmate-ing is "in" that time. So this guy was introduced to me by a friend, sad to say that this guy has a crush on my friend. He was asking me to help him win by friend's heart. Since I was this young innocent and kind kid, I said "ok, I'll help you"

The bridging of the two people ended up me having this hidden desire for the guy, I know he would never like me. I was a plump! I am not sexy (that's the reason why I had a hard time living HS life). So why did I fell for a guy whom I haven't met/seen? well, first he was so sweet.. he would always text me starting from morning to night. That time there is no Call and Text unlimited offered, nor is Sun Cellular existing. So my 250 load would just be valid for just one day. My mom would always be angry at me for wasting my load on this guy. Anyways, due to him I enrolled in an advanced 3rd year math summer class in Sakya since he was also studying there and that he also has summer classes. On the day that we will be seeing each other, I wore my best shirt and made myself presentable. Well how did it go? not good.... after that he never contacted me again... See.. I'm just so ugly! :((

So the significance of the song is that whenever we talk over the phone, he would always play that song in the background coz he know that I love that song...

Now what....

I already got the forms along with my payslip a while ago, good thing there's still time so I went to MESALA and submitted the forms. I will be able to get my loan within the next day according to their staff.

So what now? hahaha, I really am having a hard time adjusting to the next stage of my life. It seems like I'm diving into a situation that I am not yet ready to handle. But here I am now, and I know for a fact that I can get through with this. I already prayed for this and God has answered it, I will be praying next is the success of the shop and also for me to be able to manage my time, working and managing a business is not that simple. The only reason I have why I planned to put up my own shop is because of our financial status. My current salary is a big help but frankly speaking with me using only just half of my salary its not that good, the other half of it goes to my mom. I really wanted to give me and my mom a better future that's why I'd rather risk everything just to be able to give her the life that she has never experienced. I have a pretty dramatic life, it would be fit for teleseryes...


So back to the topic of my shop, I will be giving the half of the payment tomorrow after work, by wednesday and thursday we would be fixing the permits. Our target opening is on October.

Now Waiting

Everything has been settled now, the only thing I'm waiting now is the approval of my loan. Its already with the HR, hopefully by tomorrow it will be given to me. I will be on leave for a couple or days after receipt of my loan to process the business permit and other legal documents. Hopefully by next week we will be able to operate the shop. :)

A big leap

I have been planning to put up my own business, at have not really expected it would be as soon as now. Yes I'm planning to put up my own internet cafe and have already found the place for it. The place is just one jeep ride away from my place and is nearby the caloocan city hall as well as schools and the selling price is P550K. The price is quite expensive though and as of this moment we are still negotiating on the price, hopefully the owner would let us pay her in installment basis since I am going to loan the said amount for capital.

I pray that this would be a big success since there are many changes that would happen to the shop. hopefully I will be able to conduct teaching classes in it on the basic usage of computers. Also even conduct gaming competitions. I have many ideas in my mind right now, hope that financially it is feasible.. :)

I will post another entry on the happenings of my "Big Leap" :)